Saturday, September 17, 2005
after my last post. i realised that my world had a major change. ms heng giv the lantern wire dropped out i pricked my finger while fixing it. kor kor offered me to help. he even help me put a stick 1st for 2nites celebration @ porpor house. after tuition,dad brought me & mommy to sell her shoppe. coz WE **** the boss. the person very good. trusted us(auntie & mom). they gave us 19k b4 the company signed.mommy kept saying she very good. hope the stupid company boss wun wei2 nan2 her. den go to carpark got pple washing the floor in the carpark. mommy was joking wif them den they help us wash car. we gave them $2 ( it was quite miserable) however. they declined. they washed the car so clean lor..... but they dun wan $$ den continue workin' so we dun force them lor. dad say mayb coz the boss very bad den they waste water let them pay more $$. i realised although life sometimes can be downrite down, it can aso be uprite up! hiax. my tattered world will be fixed tonight. coz it's chiller time!!! hehe!
momento mori;
i juz dun like the way life is. it is so cruel. it is like once happy frenship den broke up. * yan`tell me wad happened. i dun understand how life is ever like. everything thing from black n' white. right or wrong totally change to GRAY. im turning gothic. damn. bitched. im turning upsidedown. it wasn't how life used to be.it used to be carefree. free! happy! wonderful! c00l! its my life!! i can do wadever i want wif it.... now... i doubt it.
momento mori;
Friday, September 16, 2005
yibei,
wad did i do to make u angry.
u mean bout the u act?
if tat is the reason, you r wrong!
if u heard your name somewhere in our conversation,
we compared u and the damn act Jeantte Aw.
coz she was damn stupid. ure not. juz u cnt understand
okay?
cozi hate her. act cute. shits.
i get it. now i noe why carina dun like the duo.
they are practically sucking up.
it is unbearable.
i dun want to be like dis.
yea yea. mayb after dis u'll complain to them.
complain lorr.
u can.
but i doubt u can read dis post.i juz cnt stand it when they whisper here and there in front of me.
im not as ____ as wad carina say bout them.
i dun like it.
i wonder why i agreed to____
but now. im disgusted.towards their attitude.
momento mori;
Thursday, September 15, 2005
yibei once told me tat time will heal. coz of dis big happening, the place in my heart is empty.time.... time..... i wonder how long will it be when im ready to let some1 take the place? i juz wan dis to be over.over when the time where i dun have anything. im sooo confused. i juz wan dis to be over.... really.this pain is juz too real... too real. i dun wan to hang on a piece of thread. past n' b4....
i dunno why i didnt did dis earlier. den both of us dun need to suffer dis misery. since u noe the past days is over, juz move on.... i hope u can change yr attitude. i mean its jus like the snobs....
why u wanna be me? why must u be jealous. u once said everyone believed god. den suddenly bad stuff came into dis world... jealousy. greed. many more. u said it was a sin. now ure. it doesn't mean when i have frens 2 hangout wif mean im popular u noe.i dun hav the POTENTIAL u noe... its not like tat.why they prefer me coz i dare to be different. im born to be some one special.
u wanna be yourself.... im sure u can have some1 who like your character. okay?
i really have doubts .
but i cant help it.
i fell.
i took a long time to heal.
dedicated to dearest ant,
yours till the polka dots.
cher
momento mori;
Friday, September 09, 2005
eeyow!. wad happened to my fanlist and hatelist?!?!?! awww shucks. i dun bother to redo it. wadever.
mayb im too mean towards anthia. maybe.anthia. if u can see dis msg. juz wanna tell u tat we can still be frens but the place in mahh heart 4besties. will forever be empty. i dunno juz it's too much. juz frens again. oh btw. plz dun alwaiz chat on the fone w/ me on unnessesary stuff. we can tok in skool. bcoz of dis my parents scolded me everydae coz i tok too long on the fone.i dunno why i did those stuff to yah. mayb its out of childishness. okay. wadever. u said im very guo fen. mayb mayb. but plz reflect on yrself too.
oh no. im not gonna get fustrated coz of dis. i shld l0ok on the bright side. mayb after dis happening, i might b more "strechtable" : more frens. mayb u can find out yr que dian den aso make more frens tat u think that is more of yr type. maybe.
yours till the polka dots.
cher
momento mori;
momento mori;
Thursday, September 01, 2005
i thought about this big happening de whole night.i think even i forgive her,be frens again, i dun tink we'll be best buds again. nvr.
i'm sorry. i juz saw the other side of you,the side that u nvr knew u had b4. the ugly sight which makes u think ure so perfect. i just can't stand your i-am-the-greatest-everyone-must-friend-me attitude!
i bear w/ your attitude for so long. am juz mere 2 weeks and ure so damn freaked. what happened to me? when ure havin the i-am-the-greatest-everyone-must-friend-me attitude and when i tokin to u,u ignore me. fine i'll ignore u too.i beared w/ u for almost one year. when i just cnt stand yr i-am-the-greatest-everyone-must-friend-me attitude i dun bother. u bothered me. i hate it.when u lost something,u den realised it is so precious and u regretted.u wan me back again. sorry im not gonna be a victim of i-am-the-greatest-everyone-must-friend-me again.
i jus cnt stand it.
__________________*
u hurt me.
i left u.
dis is it.
goodbye.
momento mori;